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March 2012


Hada Labo Super Hyaluronic Acid Moisturizing Eye Cream
i ❤ it bcuz:it's a combination of 3 types of Hyaluronic Acid with MORE moisture retention capacity to keep my eye area mosturised! This eye cream unlocks younger looking eyes with just one drop!

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February 2012


Maybelline Color Sensational Lipstick - purple shade
i ❤ it bcuz:it's most sensational ever! it has perfect coverage with the creamiest lip color texture ever! it's more than just a lipstick, it's very woman's must have! it's nourishing ingredients give our lips the creamiest and softest treatment with honey nectar(anti-oxidants & minerals), emollient waxes (protect lips against tightness & dryness) and vitamin E (protect lip's lipid layer & prevent moisture loss)!

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Maybelline Color Sensational Lipstick - red shade
i ❤ it bcuz:it's unique formula and nourishing ingredients, it is truly a woman's best friend! It has pigment highlighting technology, a blend of ultra-shiny oils, creating a color effect so striking, multi-dimensional and shiny! no more dull color on lips, embrace a lip color that gives us the full coverage so intense and so brilliant!

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Give this to my colleague - Garnier Men Turbo Light Oil Control Cooling Foam!
i ❤ it bcuz:it has oil-trapping mud texture, lemon extract and mineral clay! This skincare developed specially for asian men, very cool!

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Give this to my colleague - Garnier Men Turbo Light Oil Control Moisturizer!
i ❤ it bcuz:it has 6 hours oil-absorbing action, anti-grease and skin brightening for men! my colleague loves this moisturizer!

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Dry and Chapped Lips? Use Mentholatum Deep Moist Lipbalm!
i ❤ it bcuz: it's an unique OVAL tube lipbalm, it fits my mouth corner well with just a single swipe! and it won't roll away when place on flat surface too! it's no.1 lipbalm brand in Japan!

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After applying my favourite L'Oreal Paris Hydrafresh Deep Boosting Essence!
i ❤ it bcuz: I have dry skin, living in a humid and hot country like Malaysia makes it even harder to me to keep my skin hydrated. Working event outdoor and my skin is constantly exposed to environmental harms like pollutions/ damaging UV rays, staying indoor in an air-cond room all the time also speed up my skin's dehydration process, after using this product, i feel my skin is not that tight and dry d! love this so much! it leaves skin 48hr hydration up to 5 skin layers deep!

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Using Garnier Pure 3in1 at home! it can be used as a cleanser, a scrub or a mask!!
i ❤ it bcuz: no more fussy skincare routine for a busy girl like me! Thanks to garnier, with three benefits in just one product, my routine is significantly simplified! Pure genius! Give me 3!!

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January 2012

Putting on my makeup with OXY Face Powder
i ❤ it bcuz: it's one of the best face powder for oily and acne prone skin!!!

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On my vacation with Sunplay Superblock SPF130 PA++
i ❤ it bcuz: It's new advance solarex-3 technology for more powerful protection against the sun!!!

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我对自己说,日子要过得好。

Photos taken with my hp: Sony Ericsson C 902

Apology for the long wait again… and yeah, i’m back =)

Well, i know i should share with u all more… i know many of u really care about me, worry about me too… i had silent my phone for long… and i saw alot of miss calls/ sms… i lost count… i replied some, and alot i didn’t… esp those who are too close with me… cuz i dono how i should tell u all… i dono how to talk to u all… i know u all wanna visit me, meet me, dinner with me etc… but… i still have lotsa stuffs to settle, u all know my problems well, just giv me some time okay? trust me… i mis u as muc as how u mis me, i always carry every precious memory with me =) and i know u all read my blog too… so i will just share it here… for my bestest friends, and for my dearest readers too…

and my beloved colleague too of cuz… i know i didnt tell anyone of u in the hub, and to boss, sorry for not explain myself clear enough about those sudden leave/ half day leave etc…  thanks for understanding… and my clients too, many of u asked me what happened and why i didnt update for long… what kinda hurt i got… its really sweet of u all but i donno how to tell earlier, but i still do my job perfectly right ^^ hmmm, so… diz is for everyone who cares about me, or just curious about what happened to me … hmm,  i feel more safe to express myself here… although its a public blog, and there is no privacy… of cuz there are many that i not gonna tell too…  some that i should really keep to myself… but at least, i can only reply or answer when i’m ready, or really feel like saying sth time only respond to it… sorry… as i really feel better than face to face or over phone… so… gonna do it just here, not gonna escape anymore~

since 1 and half month ago… i felt sick terribly… i blackout, i fell down, i fainted on street, almost bang by car, fainted at staircase, almost roll down… yeah, i hav gotten more n more ugly scars now >< i was sent to hospital… bcuz of pengsan, bcuz of serious asthma attack, bcuz of serious heart attack… my blood pressure is very very low since i was young, thats why i always fainted… and doctors told me, i shocked them so muc, for a girl like me, shouldnt have so muc sickness… and they told me that my body is born so unhealthy, which i know too, sick easily since baby time… almost die when i was born too… doctor told my mom about it too… thanks mom, for being so brave and bringing me to this world ^^ thanks to the hard efforts of the doctors/ nurses after i was born, thanks for fighting for my life with me… thanks to my doctor since i was young, Dr. Ravi, thanks for saving back my life few times… esp the time when i was 15, when u scolded me, scolded my parents that if i was late to hospital for an hour, i was dead for sure… i know u are really a good doctor…well, those are the past… as for this time… 1st time… i really cant breath at all… i cant feel oxygen inside of me at all… my heart pains like hell… that i cried for help yet there is no sound out from me… i couldnt talk… i couldnt hold anything… even a pen… i was shivering so bad…i vomited blood again n again… was so helpless… was so scare too…

after checkout… basically… i hav all the sickness that my dad has… doctor told me that my lung, my heart, my kidney, my liver … and one more i forgot is what d @.@ none of them is function properly… and im a very serious asthmatic, heart problem is terrible too… blood problem too… hmmm, yeah eye sight starts to get more n more serious d.. i was told that i might get blind since 1 and half year ago… but i didnt really care… until this time… i suddenly become so sick… a serious patient… i kinda scare of losing my eyesight d… i hav so many sickness that can take my life away anytime… anywhere… how can i not faint anymore? how can i breath perfectly and no more asthma attack? how can i feel my heart beats normally and no more pain or attack? I don wanna hav  lung cancer, leukemia or whatsoever…  i don wanna have so much of pain… i don wanna take so muc meds in a day…

I yelled. I cried, I questioned. I blamed. I quiet.

Life is unfair, yet it is a gift. Even when life is full of craps, I shall enjoy it as im still the very lucky one.

by having so many incurable sickness, i turned to the west, and the east, and turn again, and again. i know its impossible to cure all of them, but miracle exists always right :) and i know, i will b tougher n tougher everyday.

Now i gonna share with u all… my leaf journey… since 6 weeks ago… with pictures =)

i was really lost… i donno what to do anymore… wonder how can i be the lead support of my family anymore… i spent alot of time to restructure everything, plan everything… was looking for the lights the hopes…


i went to some places… breath some fresh air… have my own sweet escape… which i’m gonna share in my coming posts…


i have been walking…. seeing…. and thinking… a lot…


have been crying a lot too… yeah, i know im useless.


thanks for every support that given by everyone of u…


thanks for caring about me during the darkest moment in my life…


thanks… for waiting for me to come back… to come home…

and when i’m back… i opened my organizer…

it’s empty… for more than a month…


flipping it back to 6 weeks ago… its so full… i hav the habit of using an organizer… stating out every daily to-do and finish them… its always so full… never this empty before… not only u, even me myself started to wonder… where have i been…

how can i giv up/ break down so easy?

葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子
天堂 原來應該不是妄想
只是我早已經遺忘 當初怎麼開始飛翔

孤單 是一個人的狂歡
狂歡 是一群人的孤單
愛情 原來的開始是陪伴
但我也漸漸地遺忘 當時是怎樣有人陪伴

我一個人吃飯 旅行 到處走走停停
也一個人看書 寫信 自己對話談心
只是心又飄到了哪裡 就連自己看也看不清
我想我不僅僅是失去你

葉子 是不會飛翔的翅膀
翅膀 是落在天上的葉子

某年,我被这首歌感动得哭了… 多次,
多日,我为唱这首歌的她哭了… 好久…

阿桑,谢谢你,
曾带给我这首歌。

that day when i read the newspaper… i cried out… life is so unpredictable… the singer who sang my fav song “leaf” is dead… and i started to understand more n more… no one knows what happened tomorrow… what for im running away from all the shits in life?

i attended a funeral of my friend’s dad too..

i didnt talk muc to the fren dat day… i donno what to say… again… i know… life… can b gone anytime… im sorry for what happened Jxxxx… u, be strong too. i think alot… i really think alot, when walkin out… when leaving… what is the future of every living thing? now i know… its death… no one can escape from it… and so… i decided to ENJOY LIFE…


i have been receiving alot of invitation cards to alot of events/ functions… and when i receive it one day…


i love the card so muc…


fantasia… how beautiful it is… i so wanna live in my fantasy world too… everyone deserves to dream right…


and so… i decided to change my hospital tag…


to this… for just a night…


not only bcuz i lov zouk loads… also bcuz im gonna run an event there soon, so, better for me to go and check it out after the renovation too.


it was the 5th Anniversary of Zouk KL…

it’s an awesome night…

oh i have this too… how i miss rolling inside of it~ yeah… life rolls on…


no matter how hard every little step it takes…


life is not only about watching over others…


everyone of us have been watching by many people too… many who care about us…


i know i shouldnt hide myself anymore…


should remember that i’m always proud of my essentric style… and should remember the essence of my life too…


shouldnt look or feel like a shit anymore…


im living in a beautiful world… surprises are everywhere…


shelters are everywhere too…


if only we pay attention….

i think alot… i really think alot these days… that night, we were treated with free flow of drinks… but i didnt take any alcohol… i stayed for less than an hour… need to go home and rest d… i know my limit..


bump into some friends… hehe, u said cannot tag u in facebook, but here aint facebook ya :P


yeah… im gonna lead a colourful life soon~ wait and see ;)

Thanks to zouk for the invitation ^^


was invited to alot of movie screenings too… went to few… missed almost all… but soon, i will be back catching up every movie… u all remember that i love movies a lot too right ^^

i hav so muc time… i spent more time at home… like i said… there are alot of insects in my home…

i hav been watching it…


and it…


awww… i really love insects…

oh i never forget about them too~

see, i’m so happy… so, u all can rest ur worries d right~


my monkeys…


my little friend who has been feeding them with me…


he is a really kind n cute boy… his parents too ^^

we feeded all monkeys around… we bought a lot of bananas…


some monekys are really shy n afraid…


so we spend a lot of time to talk to the shy monkeys…


we finally take our photos after so long… love u so muc u know?
he is cute, right? right right? ^^ so handsome somemore~

i really hav a lot of time…


i hav been playing with shadows so often too…


hav been making funny expressions to cheer up myself too…


when i’m at office… i feel so sorry to look at my dead plants… wonderin why i’m so bad… abandon them n kill them all… my batman figure all oso laughing evilly there…


well i cant live in mess anymore… and so i decided to change my life… completely… and i started of by cleaning/ tidying up my working desk…


i wanna lead a yummy leaf life…


fred now u know why i took the photo when we are eating that day d right ^^ bcuz of the leaf…


i wanna smile always….


wanna see the sun again… or the sunflowers….


i wanna see the stars… wanna feel the love….


these are what i hav been going tru… and what i ate too, yeah, i still lov foods alot :P


mummy… i will take the best care of myself… dont worry about me. i love u so so so much u know?


daddy… thanks for asking me to use diz cup… yeah, i’m loved, what am i afraid of? =)


i’m gonna walk up bravely again… no matter how people looking/ judging at me…


its the stage of my life… and i know, i should shine once again, on the stage, in my life…

from now on, i’m gonna be a frequent patient in hospital d… have to go back hospital at least once a week, for checkout, treatment and go home with lots of meds/ herbs…


and… so what? Lisa Yap gonna shine again, together with lisayap.com =)

goodnight all… thank u, once again.

187 comments to 我对自己说,日子要过得好。

  • Hippoh

    Be strong! I know you can do it.
    Right?!

  • citta

    feeling better today? :) got the parcel? good nite:)

  • Bert

    I admire the spirit that you have inside your heart. Everyone that has left a LEAF here indeed pushing you to a wonderful life. You are not alone…

    • yeah i know, i really running out of words when i lookin at these leaves that u all left for me… thank u so so so much. its amazing when i know i’m really not alone… and thanks for pushing me from bottom to the top once again… bcuz of u all, i really feel like im at the top… really touchin… thanks bert, for those leaves of urs too ^^

  • how are u recently ah?
    anything ok?
    take care …

  • Tak

    i’m 1 of your blog fans.
    Please take good care yourself so u can take more pic and continue your blog. :)
    ah fu still need your care~ and i know he will miss u alot..
    be tough ya!

    • hey tak, thanks… i never know i hav blog fans~ hehe so sweet of u! yeah, i will surely take more pics n share more with u all, will continue my blog too~ hehe ah fu is gettin smarter n smarter everyday, i cant cheat it anymore~ thanks for ur supports again tak! ^^ u take care too.

  • 妳得為自己加油哦。。。我聽妳的好消息。

  • Jeff @yong

    我看了NICK的短片也是很感动哦!其实我们都是很幸福的。。。。。。。尤其是当他说连妻子的手都无法握紧的那一段。。。幸与不幸都是福,结果不重要,重要的是在人生的过程中你有没有好好的体会,认真的感受每一刻。感恩每一个祝福你的人,感恩关心你的人,你会感觉到每个人对你的爱。。。你就会有力量了。。。。。我知道你已经感觉到了,是吗?
    加油!感恩你在我们的生命中出现,教导了我们很多事情。 共勉之 JEFF

    • 真的很感动,我也被那句有朝一日一定可以牢牢捉住她的心打动很深,上网读了很多关于他的故事,眼泪一直留,但却是微笑的,很敬佩他,也很感谢你,让我,让读叶落阁的朋友们都一起感恩了 =)

  • Hey Lisa, dun forget my birthday present kay? hehe.. Its ok if u send it late, I’m fine with it!! thx alot lisa..

    send to my email/ or u think u post in ur blog, whiever u think its more convenient for u, u decide den!! hav a fun wikend with ur family and frens..

    • Hey vincent happy belated bday. sorry i hav been real sick for some time, and then real busy for some time too. i guess it wil b really a very belated one till im free and hav the mood, but don worry, i will remember. really sorry about it and hope u don mind. thanks so much :)

      • Hey Lisa, Its ok.. u juz do it when u feel like doing, take time to finish ur works!! Thx for ur birthday wishes btw, I’ve a wonderful party v my frens here, and i pray hard for ur health too.. take care!!

          • AiPing

            Hi Lisa, hopefully you stil remember me. I think it’s abt my 2nd time to read your blog. I can’t imagine you had been facing so many hardship in your life. Sorry to hear that. Be strong, i know you can. For me, you are a so energitic, pretty, lovely…and a very good gal.I can’t forget Lisa Yap, this friend, this coursemate….Best wish for you and take care. Keep in touch, gal.

            • hey ai ping, of cuz i remember u lahh ^^ 4 years we study together where wil forget u ohhhh, somemore alpha time we said we sama tinggi haha~ how r u? where r u workin now?
              yeah life has been quite difficult at times… i will be strong, so happy to hav ur words here, i miss mmu life alot, miss every one there too… hehe all the best to u okay? and pls keep in touch with me often, don forget me ahhhh~ miss ya always.

              • AiPing

                I’m now working at balakong jaya, staying at Seri Kembangan…abt 9km from company:) hehe, we r same high but i m fatter ma…guess hv to meet up wif u n chit chat wif u…somemore can ask ur advise to keep fit liao…haha. actually, i had change hp number ady, abt one yr before. i drop u my hp number wif a msg in facebook la…c u n take care ya

                • haha i also gettin fat these days, never do any sports and jz eat sittin in front computer sleep >< hehe thanks oh, i seldom check facebook de, u stil got my number? can sms to me? thanks ya~! miss u.

  • sling

    加油哦~ 相信你一定會度過這一切的..

  • Raymond Wong

    LISA,虽然我们并不认识,但浏览过你的部落格后,我发现其实你是一个蛮坚强的女生。。说真的,上天让你拥有让很多女生们羡慕不已的样貌与身材,甚至过人的才华与智慧,但却让你换来了天生所带来的病痛。其实不是每个人都可以那么坚强去面对问题,有些人甚至因为这样而放弃了自己。。人生短短几十年,仿佛就是来人间旅游,我深信只要你多行善积德,任何问题都难不倒你的,就把你的病痛当做是上天给你的人生考验吧。。我相信你一定会能做到,健康快乐到永远。。我会帮你向菩萨祈祷,加油哦。。。

    • 谢谢你,不坚强不行啊 =P 有很多事情还想做,对呀,人生很短,所以遇到什么难题都好,好好处理之余,我也会学习一笑置之~ 很感激你会帮我祈祷,会加油的 ^^

  • Fariz Yahya

    Hello there, Lisa, on my behalf, I felt really sad, because of the so many health complications that you unfortunately had to bear with…i couldn’t have imagined how i would be like if i were in your position…..Nevertheless, i hope you will remain strong during these tough times, and I wish you all the very best, TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF…. :)
    Regards

    • hey fariz, thanks so much for this comment of urs, there is nothing to feel sad about d, cuz im happy again d, life is short, so jz enjoy it ^^ somemore i think im much more lucky than alot of ppl d~ hehe don ever think about how u will react if u in my situation, cuz it doesnt happen at all, jz be happy kay? yeah will remain strong, when im not, i know i will once again too by having all these wonderful supports from u all ^^ thanks so much. u take good care too!

  • Raymond Wong

    LISA,你几时会来麻坡呢?好期待你会来这里,好想见见你的真人,肯定比照片中的你更迷人噢。。。坚强+有自信+漂亮+魅力=LISA YAP,就因为这些,所以让我很仰慕你噢。。。哈哈哈,你是我的学习典范,你最棒,向你学习噢。。。加油,LISA

    • 偶尔都有下麻坡举办活动,哈哈或许我们见过了呢,只是我过于平凡所以认不出来=P 谢谢你,会保持坚强与自信,更会学习有魅力 =)=) 感动死了,竟然有人把我当成学习典范,谢啦,我会努力加油的~~~~

  • 大牛(Daniel Lim )

    彤…
    加油~!

    I will pray 4 u…

    但你也要积极的思想来面对你漫长的旅程…

    “虽然踏在同一块土地上…但愿

    (P/s : May i ask sum qstion? did you like Lee Hom 的 )

    “落叶归根”

  • 大牛(Daniel Lim )

    Xiao En 孝恩
    不是在Cheras吗?
    前几个礼拜我还在那徘徊了三个小时…
    迷路了…T_T
    huhuhu

  • Raymond Wong

    Lisa Yap is the best ….miss you!

  • Dear Selina, i’ve been receiving a lot of comments and supporting words from all the different readers around… I must say that I’m very thankful to everyone who cares… but this msg from you, means the most to me… it touches my heart so much… I’ve been telling myself over and over again that life is always full of surprises and as long as we still have our life with us, there is nothing that is certain. Regardless of what the doctors told me that my situation is getting worse and that medication may not help, I’m sure that there is still surprise out there awaiting. Like yourself, I found myself a cure too, allow me to call it a cure as i dont wanna stop hoping and believing.. it is really a good one and this chinese medication that im taking from my doctor now is really helping a lot. I guess that is the reason why they said that when modern scientific medication can’t help, chinese med may be able to. Though chinese med is a long term medication, but at least I can feel my body getting better and better… i will be taking Qigong, yoga does help a little at times, but not too muc, i gonna explore and try more stuff… my doctor told me i can never go to swim or jog or do any kinda sport anymore… i can only walk… its really hard for me to sleep every night, my eyes open so wide that i feel so lonely n helpless… my eyes closed and i just cant sleep… but now.. i am able to eat well.. and i guess going to sleep well soon, and I must live well. I must say, comparing to you, you are much tougher and serious compared to my situation and I’m really really happy as I read thru your words, you are feeling so much better. Irregardless of the way that we both use or found, I’m just glad that there’s a way. Life is full of surprises and we must all live our life well. There will be more and more things coming our way. As long as we don’t give up, there will be a way. I’m sure there would be more things not just for me… but for you too. You must stay strong… I will stay strong… we will both stay and live strong. Do come back more… though I may not update as often as possible, but I will continue my life well and I will share it here with all who care and love me. Thanks for caring and sharing. Take best care of yourself always selina, and thanks for being a new friend of mine ^^

  • thanks again selina, u inspired me too from your comment, take best care always kay?

  • glad to hear from you again… though the news is not as good as it is… but at least i could still hear from you and that is the most important of all =)
    it is hard to stay alive and it is harder to go through life. i think there’s no bad news in this world, but rather it’s how you perceive the news to be… but no matter how we perceived it, we ought to learn to accept and don’t look back or think about it… nothing will change no matter how many times we think back about it or rather sadden by it… life goes on. there’s a saying that goes – it’s better to forget and forgive rather than remember and regret. life is already short enough and if we hold on to all the bad things and regret living it, it won’t change anything. why not we both let go of our hearts and minds, set our bodies free and live on happily… ^^

    i’m doing fine don’t worry, but u must take good care of yourself kay? i didnt on msn anymore these days, even forgot my password d, is it ur msn email add? let me know, i will keep it and add u one day when i reg another account ;) be happy, be strong.

  • welcome ^^ and u know wat? your words inspired me even more at times… im so happy that both our comments are making each other stronger n better, yeah, dont give up, keep trying, will be here supporting u… health, relationship, and everything :)

  • steve

    lisa..你要加油啊!!不放弃! 要好好照顾自己…take care!

  • steve

    selina….i have vasculitis and the same symptoms…doctors cant help me….please tell me more about the qigong……

  • 谢谢你steve, 好的不会放弃,你也好好照顾健康……

  • i think selina has been busy, u cheer up kay? anyone around u taking qigong?

  • steve

    hope selina is all better now…no friends into qigong….but now im seeing a new doctor…taking new pills….but the possible side effects is moon face…hahahahaha

  • ya… i hope she is okay now too…. its been quite some since her last comment d… and i hope u r better too.. after seeing a new doctor, be optimistic alrite? gambateh.

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