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Leaf Story… :(
Life has been damn sickening these days….my dad was actually admitted to hospital 3 times in a week, previously would b one time in a week… and he is reluctant to stay in the hospital for days as the payment would b reali high, one day will b at least 3.5k… my heart aches each time I look at his hands… blue blacks all over due to those injections… both hands and every parts of the body dat was injected has the same bruise… he was sent into hospital at noon., evening, midnight or even dawn break… my mom looks so tired… my sis’s tears rolled down non-stop… well… a lot of u might wonder what he is suffered from… he has cancer since I was 15… and daddy has been reali strong all the time and im so proud of him. He always told me, u must owiz look like a dragon when u r outside, and when u r home, u can just b a worm… I think datz wat make me so strong for the all the past years. I rememba every single word from him, he taught me a lot a lot a lot, and every phrase do leave me a very big impact. Doctor told us dat daddy will no longer b with us and he was supposed to leave one year ago… but daddy loves us so muc, he has the kinda spirit, to keep him alive til today… he is owiz my super hero, and he even made it to my convo! Im sure he will b able to attend my sis convo nez year July too… I love him so muc, it s more than the words I can tell… daddy wrote me a note dat I keep v me all the time, which is in Chinese… self-love, self-help, self-rescue, self-confident and self-determination… he told me I must love myself in order to know how to love others and be loved in return, he told me I need to help myself whenever I face those circumstances/obstacles in life as no one will be ther for me all the time, I must learn to b independent, he oso told me to rescue myself when im in great danger, he wishes dat a blur girl like me would b more alert if alone out there in this big big world… daddy oso always ask me not to look down on myself, but hav the confidence owiz, a lot of frenz often ask me why im so cheerful, smile all the time and envy the confidence in me, and yes, its all bcuz of my dad, I’ve learnt to b proud of myself, in order to make him proud of me too, daddy oso always advise me to hav the determination whenever I start stg… I should owiz accomplish it beautifully… try all means to make it a success… don cry when fall but stand up tall to welcome those challenges, as those are the essence of life…. Although there are a lot of times when I actually broke down and lost… I was like a lil princess to my parents when I was lil…but after the news of dad’s sickness, I started to learn to help up the family… it has been 6 years plus… and daddy, thank u for being with us till today… I do believe in miracle… I was so happy to hav u wishing me happy bday during my 21st bday… to have u during my convo…to hav u lying in front of me now and letting me rub ur hand with lotion… doctor said vitamin e lotion would help to reduce those blue blacks… I know the pain, and I know it hurts… I know how suffering it is to swallow so many pills per day… I watched him swallow more than 100 pills a day since 6 years ago… and the numbers of pills are increasing again… I watched him vomited and I watched him shivered and suffered at the nights… but I never c a tear of him… u wanna know how strong is my dad? He has so muc of illness… serious asthmatic, lung cancer, leukemia, eyes’ sight prob, hardly walk…but look at him, he can still throw me a beautiful smile… there are so many kinda oxygen machine and medical supports in my hse… and today, we added a new one, a huge oxygen tank…. Its reali big and it can explode easily if there is flame nearby… daddy is owiz in the ICU room… we owiz wait outside, and he owiz come out and smile to us… I love him so muc… he never like to sit on a wheel chair, and he owiz tries to walk without a stick, how cool is him. Daddy has very strong determination and will work hard in anything/everythin to get the best result, all the time. He is caring and he loves the family very much, he puts mom, me and sis at the 1st place all the time, even though he is sick, he owiz helps us in the hse, even giv us a lot ideas in study/assignments and oso a lot of inspirations in my art works… daddy appreciate all works dat I done… I think dats why my sis is doin so well in her study, although she has a lot of family burdens since she was little, she is able to deal with those hard times and get stronger each time… my sis never let us down especially in her studies and even stop pursuing the biggest dream of her life, which is to study astronomy abroad due to our father’s illness… wat a beautiful sister I hav… she makes our parents so proud of her from the bottom of the heart. And mom… im glad to be able to help up in the family… im glad to hav the chance to fully support myself and helping in our family expenses/ dad’s medicals, so don ever feel bad bout it again, its my pleasure and im hapi to know the society so well b4 I step into it… those experiences are the treasures of mine for today…
im still learnin to hav more confidence… as there r stil a lot of things dat I need to put in effort and improve in… but I also know that nothing can be perfect and sometimes defection makes perfection… I really wsih to become someone who is more than just who im now, I wish I can fully deliver my best… im the kinda girl who used to keep things in myself and seldom voice out for any injustice dat takes place on me, but nowadays, I know how to protect myself d… as im the eldest daughter in the family… I can’t allow anyone to bully my family and let them enduring it. There are a lot of things to worry about, but I know how to b a lil relax at times and I do handle stress better n better each time… cuz I know wat my family and frenz wan most from me, not only the success in life; but also the happiness and good health. I will never let anyone worries bout me cuz im a big girl now. Just gimme a lil more time, I will make things all back to u all, my beloved mom and sis, I know it has been reali hard for u both… and dad, pls hold on, and stay for the day, I will send ya to the best doctor… and I wanna hav u with me in my weddin too… and don’t u wish to watch ur grandchildren grow? Miracle does happen… im sure bout it. And daddy, I thank u, for makin me stronger everyday… im hapi, to become so tough… ^^ and I will always remain the smiles u like on my face, don wori bout it!
Leaf 2 love…
Lisa…i’ll support u…when u r tired,let me know,when u wanna laugh,find me also,when u sad,i hope i can be there for u.is not very easy for u,but maybe tis is wat god planned…”he” wan u learn to be strong,independent tat y “he” give u tis difficult task…i think god want us to learn to be strong rather then jst give us tat when we born…maybe tis is wat ur dad wishes also…he can stand until today because she wanna c his little gal can stand alone by herself,nonit him to worry…after he go to other world he will feel peace also…i belive all dad wan to c their children to be tough enough to handle their own life…so that he can retire from tis job….but i hope ur dad will be with u as long as he can,jst take ur time to be with him…ur dad giving u all time to be with them,for me my dad didn’t give me a chance to say goodbye…so treat everyday like a last day…:)
feel sad n sorry after reading this…that’s d reason seldom u mention about ur family ..
i hope ur dad can be strong n get well..i know its a tough journey for him..just hope there is some miracle there to make him stay longer :)
then jane..u must really take good care of him ya…be strong..make him proud of u ya…
I want you to know that I read your blog message about your dad and all that you do to support him and your family. I know a few people whose family members had cancer; so many people choose to ignore it, to live their lives as though this horrible thing were not happening; others give in to sadness and don’t really live very much at all. You should know that what you are doing is amazing and beautiful, and your father and family are very proud of you for the love that you have shown them. You have done the best thing that you could have done, and it is an encouragement to everyone who hears about it.
hie…i juz randomly click n came to ur website.. i tink this article u wrote is really meaningful and touching. although i am not your friend n do not understand what u r goin through, i sincerly hope for your dad to get well. n i can see that u are a filial daughter. keep up the good job…
all the best wishes
I was bloghopping and i found this article very very beautiful and touching. I even read this post word by word, as i normally skim thru them.. Im amazed by ur dad’s determination and strength and his unconditional love for you and your family members. Yes, love can make someone do the impossible. Just like your dad, he is still with you cz of love. Take good care of him and let’s pray that miracle will happen. :)
lisa… i just read what u wrote here… tell u something… u already so xin fu than me much much d…. ur dad had cancer since u 15 means that he still with u all the time until now… my dad know that he had cancer since this early of this year… but he just with me not even one year…. is so so so sudden… hhhmmm my dad cant attend my convo.. cant with me during my birthday… all cant d.. u know what…i so so so miss him everyday.. i cant even sleep nicely every nite… coz when i sleep.. i will think of him.. so lisa… appreciate what u have now.. go home be with ur dad if u free… money can earn.. dad cant get back if he not here… take care….
就像医生说的，你daddy一年前就该＂走了＂，可却奇迹般的活了下来。这确实很不容易！
你爸爸强，意志力很强，爱护一家人的心非常强！！是你们一家人，给了他勇气和毅力！
我为你们加油！只要有信心，难关一定能闯过。加油!加油!! 加油!!!
Girl, i dont know what else to say..but truly, i am proud of u too!
hello how are u
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Er,everyone said wat i wan to say d oo..how ler..:(
Then i keep it short :
ur daddy very strong!
tat’s y got a strong daughter!
jia you!
u wil be love in every second…
becoz u got a caring fren juz like me!^^
haha..praise myself pulak..
nvm lor hor, love you more n more can d..
others dun jealous oh—-:P….^^
–love vicky–
hey, i didn’t know about your troubles and your troubles are really major. I read the part where the police was blocking the road and sometimes some people can just do one simple act of kindness to help others but they choose not to and you can see it in many people not just major thing but simple things that they can just do to make life easier for others but they choose not to but i also see and experience the kindness that is still in many people……you are a kind person Lisa and i know that you won’t do anything on purpose to hurt anyone and you bring joy to my life and bear in mind that God always have plans for all of us and i always believed in Him to guide me. I hope that God will continue guiding you and your family though the worst of times as you must remember when God closes the door he opens a window. I will support you from the other side of the world and i will make a prayer for you and for all my friends ……all the ganbateh gals………keep ganbateh…..baxia!
i’m pretty sorry about ur dad. hope he get well soon.
however, PARTY gal, feel like u need less party and save more money and time for ur dad. if financial really a problem for ur family, then u should not move out. it save more. seems like ur parent stay in Pudu while u are in Ampang. Hello….. Pudu damn far away to ampang?????
u looked FATE. til got mood taking own photo while ur dad is sending to hospital. my gosh!!!!
god bless u…..u pity-acting gal.
To my dear frenz up there who know me for years, thank u :) u all are owiz the reasons of my smiles too.
and to Mr/ Ms 123456:
thanks for ur concern. i seldom approve comments from ppl that do not know me much and think they can say whatever they want. also, i do not need others comment on what i do and how i do things. it’s me and if you’ve been thru what i have, there are just ways that we used to help ourselves feel and think better. sometimes, pics don hav to take on the spot don u know? ampang, is our own house, and there’s a long story behind, but none of ur business to know. as my dad always say, dont judge by its cover… especially when u know not much. all my frenz know for sure that i’m not a party girl, and even if i’m, what is it gonna do with u? thanks, mr/ms… er… 123456?
well, first of all let me congrat u that u did a good jod in ur blog. rarely get a interesting blog like urs that i till remember after read. (considering to add in my favourite). u deserved all the advs in here.
pics don’t hav to take on the spot = FAKE
those pic actually showing how fake and how pity acting u are cuz writhing is not enough, hav to put pic( come from acting by putting the sorrow face).this is to expressing ur so -called feeling that time.?
what i meant bout staying in ampang is ,honey..pls pls stay home with ur parent since they need u so much. money cant buy time that u spend with them.
ya .. all ur thing really none of my business. but this is what the cyber world are for… comment on what ever thing. by the way, u are NOT mind bout what i write??? but….u replied it.
GAMBATTEH baby.
123456:
wow, u r stil here, haha. thanks for staying :P
i never say i don mind but i said i don need. and as i said,” i seldom approve comments from ppl that do not know me much”, and yet i approved and replied urs, 1 of the reason is bcuz u mentioned that u hope my dad gets well soon, and another is bcuz in this post i never stated that im stayin in ampang or pudu, which means u actually read through quite many of my posts… im glad for that but its just not right for u to judge me lidat, u know nothing… we CANT stay together until end of this year, i hope for that so badly too, what do u know…? and all these r my faults as i cant earn enough money to make diz happen yet. It’s a family decision. My mom still have to rent a small room at Pudu to work, which i’m striving hard to make our own house, from totally empty house become a home sweet home, n saving more cents of hard works everyday, just so that we can live happily together… at this moment, i know i cant take care of dad fully cuz owiz outside workin, i know im not a good daughter at times too n i wish i have more times too… i also hope to accom them more n more n more… i also don wish to work til 4/5/6am everyday… in return.. my dad said sori to me n my mom thanks me… n its really sad… but bcuz of them, i know everythin’s worth n i’m loved… hmm… enough d… well, u can say whatever u want… i also dono why i wil reply n tel so muc… perhaps i’m tired to act like nothing d too.. and YES, i love to act, as im from theatre class for years. thanks for ur compliments… whatever, u take care la.
hey, i dunt how i click-in ur blog but i like it vry much! Currently, I hav a 4 mths old baby girl & i wish she jst like u so strong & thk positively.
Ya, u hav a great & super daddy & i hope tat he wil get well soon & i wil pray to Gods….
Mayb i was d eldest at home jst like u hope or do smthg 2 make our family member 2 live happily & healthy… Even i marriaged liow but i stil taking k of my daddy, mummy & bro… Mayb sometime, u wil feel vry tired but atleast u done smthg tat u wont regret in future… 4 yrs ago, i did lost both side grandma within a week, so i learn how i appreciate my family & hope 2 do smthg for thm bfor late coz i dunt 1 2 regret in my future…
U realy done a good job as a daughter & ur family wil definetly proud of u… Gampateh neh…
Mrs Toh: Thanks so much :) i’m sure your baby girl will grow up possitively and happily as she has a wonderful mother like u. thanks for praying for my daddy, thank u… i truly appreciate that… my daddy and mummy are both staying with me now…but both of them are sick… even my mom hardly walk these days… lots of ups and downs, like watching drama everyday… but we are happy, cuz finally, we are together, and we have our own house now, what i’ve been longing for all these years, a home :)
u know? ur words mean a lot to me… forget all the hard times, im sure ur parents, ur bro, ur hubby and ur baby girl are all proud of u, strong mummy.
i’m sorry about both ur grandmas… im sure they are doing well at heaven :)
u too gambateh! thanks again Mrs Toh, send my regards to ur family, esp ur baby girl ^^
Sometime, v wil feel stress & unhappy at outside but once u return home, u definelty knw, there r alwys 0ur parent waiting us at home & smile at us & ask “hav u taken ur dinner”? Dont u knw, it so sweet? Tis sweet moment is cant buy v money coz it is “wu jia” 1.
V r consider lucky lo coz our parents r wit us whn v r growing-up mah!
Ohyah, I got facebook, u can c my baby photos/videos or add me & my username is Yekim Ng.
hi sis we’ve d same name but we r so different..=) btw, how is ur dad? hope dat he is getting well…em i do believe in miracle too…love too know u more sis, dis is the most touching blog that i had ever red.
i don’t know exactly what kind of cancer that ur dad suffer, but do you know sthg that can make it better or even the miracle come true…
if u have anything for chit chat maybe i would b hapi can share it with u.
love u as my sis.
wish u all d best. cya.GBU
‘i meant ‘have anytime”
well, take care.
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